Well, here I am, finally on the home stretch—I have less than three weeks left in New Zealand, 20 days to be exact. And to be completely honest, I’m ready for some Arizona sunshine.
Lots of my Kiwi friends ask me if I’m glad I came here and I do my best not to hesitate before I answer. On one hand, I’m extremely grateful for the four months I’ve spent at Waikato, mostly because I have made some wonderful friends that I plan on keeping in touch with for the rest of my life. But on the other hand, I can’t help thinking that I missed out on a lot of the going-ons at home. Like this past week, I watched my younger brother graduate high school as Student Body President. Sure, I saw pictures and was kept in the loop through my mom’s constant texts and photos, but I almost felt excluded—as though I wasn’t part of my own family. Is it awful that while I’m supposed to be relishing my time left in this exotic country, that I’m instead pining away for something happening thousands of miles away?
It’s always been hard for me to live in the moment and for many reasons, this trip has been a challenge. I didn’t expect it to be easy, but I certainly wish I had been able to let go more than I did. I’ve discovered (more than I already knew before) that I’m a person who thinks too hard. Who is clinically indecisive. And who definitely needs to work on being more spontaneous and carefree.
We make our decisions for one reason or another and let them take us where they may, regardless of whether they are the right ones. So, I guess what I’m trying to say is seize the day. Live life. And try not to second-guess yourself. And to all those girls entering Face of Foothills 2014, have faith in yourself. No matter what happens, walk away knowing you did everything you could.
Good luck girls! Follow me on Instagram @emilysglynn for updates and don’t hesitate to ask questions!
International Friends! (Me-USA, Charlotte-England, & Susie-Germany)
Emily and Emily, my best friend from school.